I come home in the afternoon, home from the pool or running errands, lunch with friends, whatever I can find to fill my day and exhaustion overtakes me. When left alone on the sofa, I fall into a deep sleep and wake with drool on my chin hours later. I cannot organize my home, I cannot even see a load of laundry through from start to finish. I did get a facial, and a manicure; baby steps for self-care and yesterday a pedicure. That’s when it hit me. It was my first pedicure without my mom in this world.